sleeping with the light on..

2006-02-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

i think You're a fucking liar.
You're so unbelievable,
I CANNOT believe You.

I really dont knw what to say.
Stop lying to cover up.
Fucking Shit.

I HATE YOU.

2006-02-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

Shot Put today.
Ann Na got style huh!
I was like smiling and grinning at Her cause I was stoning,
And she thought smth else.
BEST.
And then She PUNCH ME ON MY ARM.
Damn not pain can,
Her hands are like adapted for hitting walls.

Oh, And I was damn lost at what to do.
I was like Omg,
I dont want to embarrass myself!
But I guess my position was not to bad.
And No,
I have never shot put in my life,
except for when i was in primary 4 and the ball was 2 kg.
so you cld imagine how much i was freaking out
cause i didnt knw how to throw the ball.

Bb after that,
Loads of one man show ard.

Heartland with U6-1.
Met Phoebe. (:

Sometimes, I just want to walk up to You and tell You.
Sometimes, I feel like slapping You for Your assumption.

Random again.

Gnight world.

ILY. (:

2006-02-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

I wanna hold You high,
I wanna steal all Your rain.

2006-02-22T12:13:00.000+08:00

cause
i dont wanna know.

2006-02-21T20:02:00.000+08:00

i was just staring at the uniform in my bag,
and started thinking of how the uniform i had to wear,
look hideous on me.
i still cant accept the fact that we walked right into BigBird ytd.
and now, im looking behind me,
Ever so afraid I'd get caught again.
And you shld really watch your back too,
BigBird is just sitting in her office,
looking at student's profiles,
waiting to catch any students that strayed by just even a little.
Oh well.
Tennis was fun today. (:

perhaps im just for your cheap thrill.

2006-02-19T16:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes its best to just ignore it,
then maybe, just maybe.
it would go away.

it wont be long before you forget my name.

2006-02-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

yeah, tell all my friends im dead.

2006-02-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

i dont knw if this is gg to be some ego shit post that everyone thinks im putting out but whatever. i think going to be at the point of my life when i dont care what pple say anymore. its kinda frustrating worrying abt this and that, that and this. so i guess i will shut my ears, close my eyes and just ignore everything.

most people come to the point when they are misunderstood, criticised and whatever whichever. perhaps im gg thru that now. whatever really, i dont knw what im suppose to feel anymore. im not gg to pin-point anyone, so i guess i will just do the whole ignorant-naive shit thing. who cares? i know i do, but i aint gg to anymore.

its just stressing the way things are, i have a million and one things one my mind, and yet its common test week. how great. im just really tired, i slept barely four hours on tuesday before heading to sch for the routine drilling of sch. and now, im shag, as in reallly really reallly shag. im so exhausted, i swear if i didnt slap myself occasionally, i would fall asleep when im walking. and i dont rmb actually how i survive on court, running ard like some mad chicken thing. i just rmb thinking im gg to die each time, yet live to go to the next trng. my life is so much like a fucken routine i dont need to think what i have to do next, its like my body knws without my mind working anymore.

Chem's tmrw. and i honestly have NOT touched my txt book. chinese tuition just finished and so being a fat idiotic cheater in chinese, i took the opportunity to do my chinese and have it graded by my chinese tcher so that i can get better marks, cause honestly, i hardly speak chinese. maybe one or two freaking times, a week, but never more. Actually, i dont even knw the purpose of blogging all this crap shit.

as im so very tired to continue and a fucken headache is cmg up again, i guess its time to chemistry.

bugger.
this must be my most honest fucking post ever.
oh well.

my toes are laughing.

2006-02-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

i dont really understand everything at all.
how things can just crash down at the very last moment.
oh well.

a sun that kills,
words that struck hard.
i guess the word is Goodbye.

yes, i mislead.
im not talking abt what you think i am.
then again,
it could be.

Go figure.

2006-02-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

a wreth for Valentine.

where am i without You.
Love, Me.

You render me insane.

2006-02-12T15:12:00.000+08:00

beyond dead.

2006-02-12T13:59:00.000+08:00

drowned sheets and blankets.
its suppose to be four months today.
and that makes EVERYTHING worst.
the words "i'll wait"
simply tore my heart into two.

as hard as it gets,
nobody said it was gonna be easy,
nobody said it was gonna be THIS HARD.

2006-02-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

and my heart's left in pieces.
i swear i couldnt screw anything as bad.
i never should have shouted.
i never should have did everything.
i screwed V day.
I screwed everything so bad,
there's no way things can go back.
i shld just sit at home and wait for death.
maybe even i screwed death.
now im living in a living hell.

when goodbyes were exchanged,
you left with my heart.
you left my body limp.
yes, i fell apart.

2006-02-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

when love and lust collides.
clique outing in the morning ytd.
Amandal was talking abt Sex damn louder,
the staff of Cartel was like staring at Her.
She's one Pro Ah Soh.
Oh did I mention?
Gg out with the clique its like,
1. the gossip session of everything.
2.the ego bomb session(mainly dionnne, duh. XD)
3.the ah soh's unite(excluding me and mb Veron. XD)

they gossipped everything from atml to like shoes,
earrings and blah blah blah.
and every sentence its interrupted by smth egoistic by dionne.
and then when the FREE bread from Cartel came,
wah piang, Everyone CHIONG ah,
Go cut bread, Go grab Butter.
Which left only ME, Having to guard their bags for them. TSK.
not like the bread was actually nice,
all hard and everything. :D
and as there was very little bread left at first,
Suann kept complaining abt until i almost went crazy.
its only bread, Dopes. XD

and guess what was amandal's theory?
the food is damn expensive,
plus Gst right?
so the bread counts for the GST paid.
So she just kept eating the bread.
she was like complaining not enough bread the most.
TSKKKKKKKKKKKK.

and then we went to take neos later on,
and they chose all the small space machines.
and in the end, we have to squeeze.
the second machine they chose had this blowing air thing in front,
they were all fascinated by it that they insisted on taking it.
and guess what?
only charlotte who was right in front had her hair blowed.
and the neos turned out rather horrible cause it was damn cramp.

D came over later.
and i forgot abt tuition!
was damn suaku.
I only found out like halfway through the tuition.
skipped it in the end!
and D and I started playing Facial house game and Dai Pai Dong! (:

i have a LONG day tmrw.
Sch, Tuition and trng at night.
just great.
and i have maths test tmrw.
I MUST pass it. TSK.

i shall go do my lit hwk now.
stupid deception question. TSK.

Just Stay.

2006-01-31T18:18:00.000+08:00

bathroom of lust.
Morning at Mrs Tng's.
We played Taboo and lots of glibbish came out.
Like the opposite of Sing is Song.
When it was suppose to be SINK.
Whichever, No one gets what im saying la.

Left for Tampiness,
Oh, NEVER sit bus with Gloria or go out with Her.
You will absolutely DIE.
Not an exaggeration.
Its like WHOO.
Ego crap.

Anw, Tampiness with D.
Was gg ard looking where to eat.
Met Jan, Charms,Clare and Ju again.
Oh, did i mention?
there was some affinity gg ard today.
Ju and Jan both wore striped shirt and green socks!
Charms and Me both wore Op shirt and White Socks!
talk abt coincidence. XD

Over at her clubhouse later. XD

I have lit and chinese hwk to do.
I havent started.
Yes, I havent. XD

All the small things.

2006-01-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

pump it.

its been a longggg day.
we're the only cca that has to do cca today! -Chants.
I think it was smth like that.
The sch was darn quiet,
And so my trng was spent just running up and down the court,
As a Centre that is.
Bless My soul, I suck at it like nuts.

Well, I got a little scared today,
I just kept complaining to EVERYONE today. XD
But after Charm's " you-didnt-do-anything-so-dont-worry" speech,
Jan's Trying to act like scary,
and Shiyun still NOT getting who or what is gg on.
Everything seems fine. XD

Guess how many Push ups with did we all do this week.
440. And Jernan, being A class can still tell me 300.
Amazing that girl.
Well, So currently,
I pulled a muscle, My arms are aching,
My feet is getting blisters from that shoee of mine.
I'm pretty shag.

Im just ranting and ranting here cause i havent blog in ages.
Or rather, blogged this long.

And tmrw morning is gg to be fun. XD
Alright, Im crapping.

Fill me up again.

`Place Your eyes somewhere else.

2006-01-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

i will let you go your way,
and i will go mine.
find your old self back.
whichever you choose.
dont let me keep you.

2006-01-24T20:17:00.000+08:00

thanks for the best birthday ever.
thanks for making it the most memorable birthday ever.
i shall not elaborate.

a broken heart for a birthday.

just perfect.
indeed, perfect.

2006-01-19T22:33:00.001+08:00

unreasonable accuses and smirkings,
just wont do.
i might just be on the train,
home.

Cause my spirit is beaten,
and my heart's broken.

2006-01-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

you know amazingly,
i felt the same way i felt 2 years ago.
okay, how bout 3?
whichever.

i realised,you are the only one that can make me feel so lousy abt myself.

worst,
you are from the past.
you shld be off the records.
why start lingering when things are all different now,
just to give me this slap on the face.

your moods were what turned me off,
now its the same.
perhaps, im expecting too much.

whichever, whatever it is.
im happy now, i know.
and as far as i know,
you're not any part of it at all.
~~Why am i not surprise?~~
---

On a lighter note,
had a great time with D today. XD
there's a game tmrw,
wish me luck. (:
[Edit-11:10]

im tired of looking at the same old photo.
It's time i look for a new photo.

2006-01-14T14:38:00.000+08:00

beyond the courts.
i honestly never felt so unsure abt anything before.
last year, at this time of the year,
i was damnit sure i wanted it.
now, i dont knw if i still want it.
for one reason,
there is this one that wants it more than i do.

mb i do want it as bad as her,
but i dont show it.

sometimes, i feel so alive,
just being on court,
sometimes i simply just dread it.
perhaps its the sun, the rain, the weather.
perhaps the amount of time i have to give up.
whichever.
and i always have this little voice in my head telling me to just give it up.
that i shouldnt try to fight.
and yet, there is another voice in my head telling me not to.
its like the angel and devil debate. (HAHA)

many things have crossed my mind this few nights.
and i wonder how i shld cope with it.
competition is on wednesday.
monday will be my last chance.

my chance just simply dangles on two simply words.
"in" or "out".
thats how simple it sounds isnt it?

then how come i dont feel that way?

2006-01-08T17:11:00.000+08:00

Raining in my head.
its not just raining outside. tsk. Today has been a very bad day. Rain plus mood. Thanks alot. and i have realised how lame veron is. :D

Went out to OG today, And TWO aunties mistook me for a guy. And Yes, like Bird asked, I am very new to this,
because my hair aint very short, and i was just wearing shirt and pants.But nevertheless, One of them called me "XiaoDi" and the other one told me that the guy's toilet no need to queue when i was waiting for the girl's. She thought i was that dumb as to queue if i was a guy. She gave me this look from head to toe .

the woman was like " Aye, the guy's toilet is over there, no need to queue."
Me: huh?
(realised im not a guy and gives me a look.
She stared from my hair to everywhere of my body. TSK.

Cartel soon with Clique, Cant wait. Faster decide Suann! (:

I'm seriously too tired to blog. so i shall just closed this.

I have to do my hwk somemore.
It started raining AGAIN. tsk.

~~4 more days.~~

Hold me now, Dont bother,
If ever minute it makes me weaker.

2006-01-05T17:52:00.000+08:00

here's to you NICOLE FRIETS, i hope you read this:
sorry nicc.
sorta forgot cause i was doing it in a rush.

you have been a great friend too.
really sorry la.
well,
i hope your class has been good.

2006-01-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

I hate homework.

a little something for my darling friends before i go back to homework.

Dionne- for making me laugh always. (: and with your lame " bother! bother bother!" with Renee. everything all in all. I love you, HONEY BUNNY! :D You the sole captor of MY HEARTT. :DD i will get to see you in netball still la hor. (:

Suann: HEY BESTIE! i still cannot believe that on your blogskin there is just ONE pathetic picture of me, AM I YOUR BESTIE OR NOT. :D Moron. :D But, Still, the little card you made for each one of us, is on the wall above my table. each time i glance at it, it certainly did bring a smile to my face. Thanks for the wonderful friendship.
Bird- For always talking to me abt this and that. i will never forget. Anyway, same class for the next two more years. HAHA. (:

Renee- PARTNER! BOTHER! HAHAHA. I love You, Yes i do. (:

Charlotte: HELLO MORON! i love you. (:

Amandal and Veron: I know you both arent gonna read this, but you know you love me! :D whoops, You know i love you both la. :D

Jan- HELLO YAOI LOVER. thank you for being such great grandkid! :D

Charms-yes, We made it , Yes i read Your blog. (: love.

Ju-change sex one, you know i love you soooo much though i know you have been cheating on me! :D

netballers- Words cant express how much i love you all so much. (:

i miss out a fair few, but you guys know how lazy i am. so pardon me. i still love you all la okay. (:

2006-01-01T20:02:00.000+08:00

Today here, Tomorrow gone.

Now lemme show You the shape of my heart.

Old songs on the repeats,
As I watch my heart fall apart.

Send in this beautiful loneliness that's tragical,
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now, don't bother if every second it makes me weaker.

2006-01-01T17:38:00.000+08:00

I will live through this.
I know I can.
I made a choice,
I will stick by it.

I love You,
For the last time.

2006-01-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR. (:
I HAVENT STARTED ON MY HWK. SEE! I TOLD YOU I WOULD PROCASTINATE. Omg, just one year gone like that. Soon, this time next year I would be typing the same thing in a blog. Tsktsk. Thats just life isnt it? A vicious cycle.

Anws, I have heard stuff abt my class and everything. Some parts of it i dont like and everything but i guess I will have to live with it. At least the combinations are to my satisfactory. And well, there are friends in my class. So i guess things arent that bad.

But B and I are really, REALLY Praying DAMN HARD that Edna is NOT our tcher. I just PRAY that she aint our Poa tcher, or I can just say goodbye to accounts and hello to failure. Tsk.

I can even imagine life with Her as our Poa tcher. It'd be like she will be talking to the Her best friend, The whiteboard and we would be behind her snoring away. And she would forget what she initially was talking abt and ask us where she was and we would be equally lost. How great is that? :D

I went church with D and J today. its pretty fun i guess. They came for the first time. (: And well, its just new to both i guess. One from the kids section and one from a church with a total diff environment. D was screaming in the toilet, Abt peeping and everything. :D Making a BIG fuss. Like omg. HAHA. Oh well.

Dinner later with my dad's friends. Watched the show "centre stage". (: Some dancing show la. I tell You arh, I'm still totally amazed by the way they dance. I mean, On toes? haha. I will break my toes and howl like an asshole. Okay. Im not making any sense here am I.

Okay. I'm too lazy to continue alr. Ha. Its just been a great day i guess. (:

Gdnight, And Once again.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

Cause You are always on my mind.

2005-12-31T12:34:00.000+08:00

If it was You and Me tonight.
I've been comtemplating if i shld Blog, even right now, Im deleting and erasing whatever I wrote, and rewriting it again and again. Lets see how far this goes.

I've been playing Maplestory, Really fun okay. I mean, Yeah. :D HAHA. influence from D's Bro. And No, I've not finished my hwk. I'm going to start after this post. If not , i know Monday night I will be rushing like hell. Stressing the hell outta myself. But thats me, I will procastinate I know, Thinking i have alot of time. How i made it through to sec2, I still wonder sometimes.

Its going to be the end of 2005 tonight. And the start of 2006. Its all too fast. Really. I'm really lazy to do a tribute to 2005 like some have done. Maybe I will do it tonight, Maybe I wont. But I think that those who have made a huge impact on my life shld know who they are. They would know that I still adore them so much. (:

I'm like talking to myself Here. I think I'll end here. This is how far it went. HAHA. :D

How do I make this more poetic,
When there is nothing more pathetic left to be said.

2005-12-26T20:22:00.001+08:00

Busted-Over now

Here we go
Take a bow
Because we're over now
You were not
There for me
When I needed you and honestly
I think I loved you more
If that's possible
I think I loved you more.

[Chorus:]
It's over now and I can't see you
Some things are better left unsaid
And all the promises I made were so stupid
Maybe we'll be able to be friends
If that's possible

Two days gone
I'm alright
But you can't sleep at night
What is it you don't like
Are you happy nowI was playing with your head
And I close the door
I was cheating when I said
I love you more, yeah

[Chorus:]

It's over now and I can't see you
Some things are better left unsaid
And all the promises I made were so stupid
Maybe we'll be able to be friends

If that's possible
It's over now and I can't see you
Some things are better left unsaid
And all the promises I made were so stupid
Maybe we'll be able to be friends

If that's possibleIf that's possible
If that's possibleIf that's possible
It's over now.

I hate it when pple question my priorites,
If you dont knw yet,
I will tell You again,
I HATE it when pple question my priorities.

If you dont appreciate being the top of my priorites,
Fine. But PLEASE shut up.
I'm not asking You to put Your grandfather in front of me.
I didnt even utter a word when You said so.
So yeah,
Shuddup.
Wait, I think Im just wasting my time,
I shouldnt even bother putting You first,
You dont even DAMNIT appreciate it.

And So, I will rearrange my priorities.
I had it.
Yes Im talking abt You.

"Over now"'s been playing on and on.
And Now i really really really,
know how R feels that time.
Perhaps because I havent been in D or B's position.

okay whatever.
I'm so irritated,
I think I sprained my leg running up the stairs just to blog this.
AGAIN.
Same leg.
My leg will break soon. tsk.

The end so clear to me now;
Tell me if my sweet love is gone.

2005-12-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

The six last mins of Christmas.
I realised I forgot to say.
Merry Xmas everyone. (:

2005-12-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

I HATE SCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I HATE SCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HWK.
okay, even that was an understatement.
Nope, I dont really hate hate sch that much,
okay, I hate sch HWK.
Yes, The keyword here is HWK.
I hate HWK.
And I shall repeat this,
If sch doesnt understand the meaning of Holidays,
Where does that put us?
Oh well.
What can I do?
Im still in sch.

BAH.

D's party last night.
I didnt get caught.
Now, Santa gave me a really good present. (:
Ha, Im just crapping my ass here.
Party went okay.

J was being a scaredy cat,
E was killing our ears and making us deaf,
Not mentioning the glass that almost broke,
S was just being Nosey,
L was just laughing and laughing and keep wanting to play Uno,
And D was just,
Being D. :D

Today:
Went to D's church.
There was this guy there B,
That I REALLY couldnt stand.
I know D's gonna ask me to sit on him then,
But i tell You,
He can be the chairman of AAs man.
Tsk.

And Paddy wore a rug today!
Act Moses! :D

Christmas dinner. (:
Cousins came over. (:

Just watch Drumline.
If any of You know the show.
WAH PIANG,
You will think the guy is DAMNIT good and cool! :D
I love that show. (:
He could just pick up the drum beat in like whoo?
You play it once and he would get it?
Freaking cool I tell You. (:

Yeah,
Okay.
I still have tuition hwk to do.
Damnit.

Lemme put my list of hwk here.
Dont be surprise,
I HAVENT touched it yet.
Yes Bless My soul.

According to order that i must do.
1.-Tuition hwk.( i have to do it by tmrw! :D)
2.-ENGLISH COMPO
3.-CHINESE COMPO.-ENGLISH COMPO
4.-3 NEWSPAPER ARTCLE REVIEW,
5.-3 MAGAZINE ARTICLES
6.- thematic txtbk
7.-read fu zhu du ben
8.-Edna mode's GIGANTIC PILE of maths hwk.
I think the pile of hwk is kinda like taller than her please.(I might not do :D)

Perhaps I missed out some,
I dont knw.

Be my guarantee for Tmrw. (:

2005-12-24T13:42:00.000+08:00

I close my ears.
I think I'm wasting my time here.
I think its like I close my ears to opinions I dont want to hear.
Go or not to go?

Oh whatever.

Lemme close the door.

2005-12-21T19:01:00.000+08:00

Only Memories left.
Too often, The place doesnt change,
Only the time does.
Of course randomly the place changes with time.
And many of the times we look upon the place,
At a different time,
And Sometimes wish You could go back to the old times You had.
Every one round of the clock with the minute hand,
A minute is struck into history.
There's no way we can stop time.
And neither is there a way to turn the clock anticlockwise.
Just that.
Time just passes us by and by.

And so Today when I looked at the Kallang Netball centre.
The bearer of So so so much memories,
I really wished I could turn back times.
Re-play the Damai match,
Win back the glory we shld have deserve.

And Maybe,
Just maybe,
Beelian could have stayed.
Im not saying MissChua sucks.
She's fine, Really.
But the feelings just different.

When the team bonded,
It felt like family.
I just want to feel how its like to re live the old team.
The C div's 14 players.
All of us.
Playing and fighting for every match.

And so I realised How much,
How much we have all changed.
Time. Time just passed us by so fast,
Unknowingly.
Its been almost a year.
And Maybe some years down the road,
We will just be another c div team of PL.
Perhaps forgotten.
I dont knw.

What im trying to say is,
I miss Beelian.
I miss the old team.
I miss the bond we have.
I miss the old times.
Tsk.
Oh well.

Just ranting it out.

We played against GanEngSeng today.
pretty fine.
My stamina sucked like shit.

Headed off later to meet D and J.
Oh i just had this funny thought.
Put D and J tgr and You get,
DJ! :D

Ate with them.
Laughed ard abt strawberry panties. :D
And those two kana diao by some Ah lian. :D

Home.

Oh, Did I mention?
I have assholes for parents.
Tsk.
Thank You.

My life in just fragments of memories.

2005-12-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

Didnt just break my heart into two.
I cut my hair on saturday.
I think its kinda too short to go sch.
Hair, Grow faster. :D
But its kinda cool having hair like that.
My hair dries in like less than 10 mins? :D
Around there la.

Christmas is in 5 days.
And I have yet to get presents for some.
Oh,
And I HAVENT finished my hwk for sch.
Whats new.
damn the commonwealth essay.
How dead am I. =(
Sch's starting in like in less than 2 weeks.
Oh well.

I've been out alot these days.
And online's beeen super duper BORING.
Someone, Anyone.
Please Entertain me. (:

There are a thousand reasons why i shld give up.
Yet My only wish is to just fall asleep with You by my side.

2005-12-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

The end.
She goes for a dinner with a guy that calls her sweet names.
You decide to be oversensitive.
You cant swallow your pride.
Goodbye is the only word left to describe it all.

Oh,
I forgot,
My bestfriend decided to choose this Vond er ful day to visit me.

And I bit my tongue,
Not cause I didnt want to make things any worst.
But cause I couldnt swallow my pride.

2005-12-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

Trust;
what a freaking easy word to say,
but freaking hard thing to do.

oh well. just been a pissing day.
I slept pretteh late last night,
And my mother woke me up just when i was having a nice dream.
Right.

Headed over to Swee(Spell?)
in Sims ave to look at my sister's drums.
Stayed there for like freaking long.
Ended up talking on the phone.

Then hadta wait for my sister t finish her drum lessons.
Then headed over to J8.
Just when i was msging Bird,
I saw Bird.
Pretty freaky.
And did i mention i didnt bother to dress up or anything.
I sorta just took whatever my fingers touched and wore it.
I could even sleep in the clothes.
and my hair looked like i just woke up.
So malu. :D

Met Trish from my primary sch tuition.
And we've been msging and she's been making me laugh. Heh.
That funny girl.
Oh, Did I mention?
She looked like she did some makeover,
Prettier la hor. Tsktsk. Ha Ha.
And she could still recog me.
Weird huh.

Its been a long day.
Its been tiring.

Oh, And Trish?
If You do read this,
Thanks for Cheering me up. (:

`I'm shutting You out.

2005-12-15T15:01:00.000+08:00

On bended knees
Blah, Its a week and a little more till sch starts again.
Thats damnit fast.
Why doesnt Edna mode's class dont pass that fast?
Tsk.

Going out to meet Crys, Ka and Zuxin.
Its been a long time.
No, Lemme emphasize,
its been a LONNNNGGGGGG time.
Right. what the hell am I doing.

My head aint right now.
And I havent touched my homework.
Im moody;
Im annoyed;
Im irritated;
Im frustrated.

Im everything thats along that same line.
Oh wait I forgot,
Its that time of the month so im moodswinging.
Great just great.
Thats what I need this week.

I better get outta here before I throw my temper at someone.
Wait i already am.

`Raining in my head.

2005-12-14T18:05:00.000+08:00

AIYA WHATEVERRRRRRRRRR
What the hell.

Ashamed yeah?
Im not going to let that get into my head.
Tsk.

You got me bad,
Worst.
You killed Me.

2005-12-13T09:48:00.000+08:00

Back.
So alot's been happening when im not around.
Its damn faggoting cold there I tell You.
Rather boring too.
And I put on at least 2 kg.
Yes, I've grown fatter.
Bird is going to laugh at me when she sees this.
Dont worry, I will WORK OUT AND TRAIN DAMN HARD IN NETBALL.
Until Im damn slim and SEXY.
Dig that Birddeh. :D

Im not going to blog the contents of my trip down,
Cause I know whoever is going to read this,
Will prolly be using Her keyboard as a Pillow,
Falling asleep that is.
Oh, I missed the drooling part.
Fall asleep and drool.
HA.

Im going out soon.
Im still damn tired.
And WHY IS SINGAPORE SO HOT. =(

When it just comes down to You and me,
Everything else just breaks away.

2005-12-12T01:40:00.000+08:00

Where's my heart ?

2005-12-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

I'll be right here waiting for you
Its been 5 days and i'm almost dying to see you, hear you , receive a msg from you.
I promised you that i would wait for you and i have.

Today i thought of your face
it brought a smile to my lips

I've missed you deeply.
<3

2005-12-07T12:13:00.000+08:00

Missing you

Hey there.
You take care.
Have fun there.
You know i'll be waiting for you, for your return.
This i swear and this i promise you.
I'll be fine and so should you.
I won't cry, I won't tear.
I miss you.

Ms Strong <3

2005-12-06T18:09:00.000+08:00

Left my heart in Singapore.

2005-12-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

Your words ringing in my ears.
A perfect day ruined by an imperfect night.
Im damn tired of everything.
Pms-ing sucks la.
I will be leaving for Japan tmrw.
Have fun whoever's even bothering to read this.
And Take care.

~~Good~~Night.

You left me hanging there.

2005-12-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

My red shoe.
Okay, So it started out as a PERFECT SUNDAY MORNING.
I was rushing to go to Demelza's Church,
And Guess what happened?
I had a LOVELY surprise from Mother nature..

A FREAKING FROG WAS IN HIBERNATING IN MY SHOE.
And so Unexpecting it,
I put my feet into the shoe halfway.
And WITHOUT any Socks mind You.
(Was intending to wear my socks in the car)
And then,
I felt something moving when i was running towards to the car.
Slipped my feet out,
thought it was the shoelaces but decided to check.
Held up the shoe,
SAW THE DAMN FREAKING HELL FROG.
AND SCREAMED.
I think i woke those lazy bums who were still sleeping in. :D

I SWEAR I HATE FROGS.
I REALLY DO.

Okay okay.
Headed down to D's Church.
Joined the service.
Yada Yada.
Headed to watched Aeon Flux.
Its a DAMN VIOLENT SHOW MAN.
Paddy who joined us was like EE-ing and AWW-ing.
And There was this part when Aeon licked a girl's earring and then yank it off with her teeth.
Paddy went EEEEEE damn loudly.
UNTIL I DIDNT WANT TO SIT NEXT TO HER CAN.
HAHAHA.

Ate Lunch.
Had Ban Mian,
And Then Lovely Paddy didnt want to pick up the call,
So I yanked the Ipod Nano earpiece from Her ear,
And POP, it went into the Ban Mian's Soup.
LIKE OMG,
THAT EARPIECE BARELY LIVED FOR ONE WEEK.
THANK YOU PADDY.
Im NOT going to lend You my Nano again. :DD

Paddy headed off first after that.
We left short after.

Had Dinner with Twin. (:

And the moment i stepped back home,
A FREAKING LIZARD DROPPED DOWN FROM THE CEILING IN FRONT OF ME.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH TODAY PLEASE.
Tsktsk.

Oh, before I forget, Bird has A FROG family now. :D
SHE LAUGHED AT ME OKAY.
SO DID PADDY, DEMELZA, DIONNE, SUANN AND JANICE.
ALL EVIL PPLE.
I hope that there will be Frogs hiding in your beds tonight. :D

Long day tmrw.
I will be leaving for Japan in 2 days.
And best,
There will be NO computer nor Handphones.
Good Luck to Me.

And So,
Goodnight to Everyone. (:

You will know that I still wonder
How many times that I've compared
The stars to Your eyes.

2005-11-30T00:43:00.000+08:00

with your back to me,
walk away from me.
before you go,
write it off with a 'the end'.
then we can both walk our separate ways.
dont look back,
cause i know i wont.

The end.

2005-11-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

Tell Me why.
Watched Just like Heaven with Demelza at Cine.
She was tearing la.
Like some silly fool la. :D

Walked ard later.
She was busy pulliing smth up.
Ha. And she was thinking of
Batteries,Waterbottle,Cucumbers,Watermelons,Handphones and Spects.
And She made a fool outta Herself at Hougang Station,
Using a waterbottle.
Her face was like a Tomato.
Okay, Why am I naming fruits?
Or Veggie, Whatever.

Tmrw the results will be out.
Oh well.
Nervous or anxious?
Not exactly the right feeling.
Perhaps Neutral then.

Baby, Into the car and away with me.

2005-11-28T17:26:00.000+08:00

Life for You.
Its funny how two completely different things can happen at the same time.
Fights and random thoughts been thru my head every now and then.
Causing tears and pain.
tsk.
Sometimes it sucks when smth You do,
Makes someone sad and everything.
okay, Enough.

Anyhow, GUESS WHAT!
I GOT A LAPTOP!
Yes, A LAPTOP.
And Guess what comes with it?
A IPOD NANO! HAHAHA.
D was hopping mad when i told Her.
She went Crazy. HAHAHA.
Bestie was like JEALOUS but she didnt want to show it.
HAHAHA.

Yeaps, its some package deal,
It comes with like an FREE
Ipod Nano, Camera Printer, Extra Ram, Antivirus Cds and all la.
And all for like about 2 thousand 3.
Quite good alr right? ha.
Spent like 4 hours in Expo ytd.
Walked till I almost died,
Cause I dont do shopping much,
Neither do I like shopping very much.
`Cept for my laptop perhaps.
HAHAHA.

Im damn high now.
I shall be going off now.

And I hope You always stay the same.

2005-11-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

Its silly how we always dont mean stuff we say.
Its hurting when the words that comes out cuts deep.
Its stupid how we always throw words as each other with angst.
Not giving much thought,
And How it hurts so much later.

Do we fight, cry and bleed just to feel?

Just Human.

2005-11-25T13:57:00.000+08:00

Pillow and Bolsters.
Before i start,
This is going to be one long post.
At least I think so, Thats if Im not to lazy in midst of typing all of it. :D

Sec4 Farewell.
It started of with Trng and I was darn tired.
Stoning and stoning. :D

Came back late for Sec4 farewell,
Had abit of games.
Like the landmine games.
Stupid Su chose the dumb pail instead of the watergun,
So we all got really wet,
And who the hell was the dryest?!
SU of couse. -.-
And Lizard was protecting Her wig. :D

Testimonial match.
Then Dinner.
I spill the drinks like twice!
Jan once.
And I think Shiyun or Dayna once.
Welcome to the spill drinks club. :D

Lighting of the candles before Performance.
Performance went quite well,
Cept the fact that I stoned when I saw Qy.
She was late and everything.
Long story.

Then we all ran away to the bball courts and took out sparkles,
The sec3s are MAJORLY sweet la.
Then lit the pathway with candles all the way from the Hall to the courts,
And then in the middle of the courts,
The Candles made out the words " WE LOVE YOU"
Shiyun says next year we are going to use Milo! :D
Candles on Milo,
Happy Drinking Shiyun. :D

Singing and Hugging and talking abt the senior's characters later.
Jenny was annoyingly childish,
kept playing with the candles! :D

Star grazing and RA show later,
WAIT, PG13 I meant. :D
Damn funny. :D

Knocked out at 3 plus.
Singspiration.

Did the dance once more,
U6! (:

Copied the sec1 dance,
Oh, did I mention?
Wei Ying is AMAZINGLY Annoying,
She keeps rolling Her eyes when She dances. Ha.

Headed off to meet G Later.
Went out to immigration to change my photo for passport.
G tagged along.

Went to Ps later to TRY to catch HP,
Full house.
Stupid Girl suggested Suntec,
So we walked from Raffles convention centre to City Link mall,
To the end of Suntec,
And guess what?
Full house AGAIN. -.-
G was seriously cursing and complaining by then.
Cabbed to Bugis,
Seriously damn tired to walk to mrt station.

FINALLY, Caught the show.
The part when Cedric died,
Damn sad.

Rushed home to eat crabs,
G was so hungry she grabbed at every food in sight.
Watched Tv until quite late till 2am,
We watched Hey Arnold! :D
And I was telling her which show would Jan be watching. :D

Headed upstairs to sleep.
G didnt sleep cause I kept kicking Her. :D
Left in the morning.

Seriously this post been SOOO long.
But in short, Just two very good days. (:
Okay Shuddup Doralynn.

I'll keep my heart with Yours
For every minute I am gone
Swear You'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In Your heart and in Your eyes.

2005-11-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

Replaying songs.
In a perfect world..
I swear we can do the dance with our eyes close now.
We practised so much today,
We went crazy.
And it was raining today.
All day to be exact.
Damn cold.

Did the rehearsal till We were all going crazy.
Gossiped abit,
Sound so bimbotic. :DD

Im suppose to blog abt JU.
And I cant think of anything, and she's scaring me with Her , You-dont-know-what-mothers-can-do talk. ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
I feel like hammering her, NOT helping Wifey! Oh, and She surprised me with Her msg ytd. Nothing sweet or nice to talk abt la, She just went GOODNIGHT HUBBY. Like hello? No sincerity. Ha ha.
Oh, and She LOVES gossiping to me abt AHEM. Dont know la, She gossips to EVERYONE. :D I sound like Im writing You a testimonial leh. Okay, Lucky she's not being Horny today. :D

Awful headache.
Shoo please.

Oh, Happy Birthday Crys.
Didnt type this ytd cause My dad was bugging me to off the com.

5 more pathetic hours.

2005-11-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

Pretentious acts
Someone just spoilt my day.
By preeching to me.
Was damn irritated.

Well,
On a Lighter note,
D's email helped abit. (:

Had fun with Netballers today. (:
Tennis! :D

Freaking dad is getting on my back.
God, I wish He'd shuddup.
I swear one day,
I MUST get my own laptop.
Tsk.
He got a bloody computer in office what.
Come back and kope the computer for work.-.-
Tsk.

Goodnight Peeps.

Till the next midnight.

2005-11-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

Silly things We all do.
I hate it when stuff like that happens.
Oh well.
Mood swinging. Tsk.

Its tiring sometimes,
Always having to put a smile on your face,
Just because Your friend is upset,
And You want to comfort her.
Its emotionally draining.
In the end,
She walks off later,
All feeling better and well,
And forgets You were there for Her.
Thinking back,
I did stuff like that to others,
So now its coming back to me.
Ha.
Silly karma. =]

Trng tmrw,
Cramps are damn freaking bad.
Freaking hell.
Oh well.

1 more hour and one more midnight till D's back.
Dionne's leaving tmrw. =(
Trng is going to be damn quiet,
With NO milker ard. =(
Ha,
Well, have fun la Dionne. (:

~~Do You know how it has been?~~
Dreading days and Long nights.

2005-11-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

Unexpected arrival.
D's unexpected message in the morning.
Changed my day. (:

Out shopping with my family.
Did i mention?
My bestfriend came.
Though the cramps are killing me like siao now,
Im happy it came,
That means next week when the 'camp' for sec4 farewell
is on,
I dont have to worry abt it. :D

I have been caught up on this game since D left.
http://www.chilloutzone.de/files/03110601.html
Its kinda horny la.
HEH.
Or rather ,
Jan, Suann, Charms and Ju thinks so.
And i bet its like Ju's forte.
That horny one.

Charms, If You're even here reading.
I hope You feel better after playing the HORNAYE game. :D
Have fun running away with MORON beaumont. :D
Take care.
LOVE! <3 AND IM STILL PSYCHIC. Stop thinking of the game hor! :D <3

Thats all for today.
Goodnight peeps. (:

3 more days. (:

2005-11-19T00:34:00.000+08:00

Fingers gripped to the edge; Slipping.
Thank You Suann for the blogskin. (:
I know i irritated you damn bad by being so fussy. :D

Fingers are gripped on to the edge,
Slipping.
Soon,
Over the edge and gone it would be.
Calling out to emptiness,
Its You im calling out for.
It feels like You are nothing but empty spaces.
Its like holding on to blank space.
And No,
I cant hold on anymore.

~~Its You, Im missing.~~
4 more days.

2005-11-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

100 times! :D
-Screams! :D

Only YOU are worth my all.
-[Edit-12:27am]

Naming craze!
OMG! Damn fun Okay.
Iits amazing that some moron like Charms can come up with stupid stuff like that! :D
NAMING OUR TOES!
aint she abit special up there.

So in the end,
She name TOES,
I name ToeNAILS,
Jan is naming HAIR!

I got the perfect names for my toenails!
Here they are:
Dara, Elisa, Melissa, Eve, LEON, Zena, Aaron, Andy, Nathaniel and Gray!
all the names make up special meanings! (:

Jan is trying SOO hard to find a fitting so perfect like mine.

And Charm's toe are called :
Marcus1, Marcus2, Marcus3, Marcus4, Marcus5, Marcus6, Marcus7, Marcus8, Marcus9 and Marcus10!
All same can anot! Ha, I shant bother to change the colour then! :D
How creative huh?

Ha, Now, Su's naming her fingernails after this PATICULAR SOMEONE.

Omg, We sound like morons who havent got lives to live.
I think we are all special then,
Special up there. :D

The ending of this night, Just surprises me so well.
And i've made my mark!
I've listened to the song 'Hey Juliet' 90 times today!
Since 12 plus this morning!
10 more! (:

Omg, This is crazy, im not sick of the song either.
Why am I so lame today?
Must Be the side effects of hanging out with Charms TOOO MUCH.
Bad for health.
God, this is crazy.

Goodnight dearies!
Im feeling high now. (:

Baby, You're still on my mind every second.

-[Edit-11:49]

Be my Juliet.

Im lazy to blog.
Another day.
Today sucks.
Thats the conclusion.

2005-11-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter's coming out in less than Half an hour.
Ha, Renee's going to go mad. (:

Your absence drives me crazy.

2005-11-16T17:59:00.000+08:00

Sharing the same skies.
I swear You DO make my english poorer.
Tsk.
Today's trng is damn bad,
I just realised how much i've been slacking. :D
Dionne made laugh so hard,
I had difficulty running.
The milker milk woman who loves milking everyone.
Dionne, dionne, You're just damn right sick. :D

Walked to macs later,
AGAIN.
With Dionne and Renee.
Try NOT laughing when You're talking to Dionne,
You laugh so hard,
You cant walk.
Its that crazy.
And Dionne kept acting like Patrick in the cab.
Crazy idiot MILKER.

Over to Phoebe's for awhile.
Her house is like full of junk. :D

Home.
Her Email FINALLY came,
I was like hyperventilating.
Her email came at 4.48 in the morning.
Crazy time,
But I just realised that I suddenly woke up at that time,
And Quickly Checked if it was 3am.
Kinda coincidental.

Now, Marisse, If you're reading this, You are VERY annoying you dumb spaniard dudette. :D

You're my missing piece.
Just 6 more LONG days.

2005-11-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

Just 8 days.
Trng ytd,
Didnt trained,
She called before she left.
Dance later,
and Macs later.

Dionne started her lame stuff,
Like Jan being the milk lady,
Full of crap,
Crapping us up like crazy.
Silly girl.
And Renee loves BURSTING her bubble.
Its been quite long since i sat thru one of those sessions. (:

Home.

Nobody said it was easy;
No one ever said it would be so hard.

2005-11-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

Using Socks as Shoes.
Felt like going for the baptism service,
Everything went as expected.

She's going off on Monday for 8 Days,
O' thats so gonna kill me. TSK.

Im off to tuition.
Sleepless nights.

One month, Baby. =)
This i swear. (:

2005-11-12T13:18:00.000+08:00

Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe to start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home.

Caught the Exorcism of Emily Rose,
Kept me awake for quite long,
Suddenly woke up at 2.30plus,
And phoned Demelza.
Lied in bed and started freaking out over 3am.
And she kept reminding me of the show.
And we were like " Omg, its 5 mins to 3"
And when it was finally three,
We both went silent.
Scaring ourselves and everything.
Damn, We sound like Freaks. :D

And Did i mention?
I keep hearing dogs barking,
And my dad has this suit hanging on the door,
And it looks like some freaky coat with the hoot,
And when i was talking to soulmate,
And telling Her abt the show,
My jacket which was hanging on the door suddenly drop from the door.
Wah, Scared me can anot.

Ha, and STUPID SOULMATE didnt pick up my phone.
And she can still come and msg me at 8 and say,
" I KNOW YOU MISSED ME!"
Eheheh. Damn Ego can anot.

Ha, Baptism service tonight,
I have half the mind not to go,
I dont knw why.
Tired perhaps.
And I guess tonight will be another sleepless night.

2 more days.

2005-11-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

Sleeping with the lights on

Trng then
Out with Gray.
Skyhigh today.
Damn cute la that show. :D

Ha, And SILLY Felicia tried to prank me,
But i wasnt at home. :D

Nothing much to say,
Dental tmrw,
Just great.

4 more days before my heart flies to Canada.
Take me with You, Before it kills me.

2005-11-09T17:05:00.000+08:00

The last page in the chronicles of You and Me.
Yes, this shall be the last post,
Of You and Me.
Yes, Dig of hole and bury it.
Finally, Im down to the last lines of the page.
I guess thats all i can say to conclude,
Some say its not worth it,
But I gues its not for them to decide.
So,
If one day,
I might be able throw aside all I have now,
And still have smth for You,
I would prolly penned down my thoughts somewhere,
Give them to You,
And wonder if You would want me.
But Im not going to think abt It anymore,
You and I are at our last chapter of how we were part of each other's life.
Wait, You alr closed the book of You and Me,
Bury US somewhere You never will look again,
And I guess its high time I do.
Cause We are both happy the way We are now.

Now You will open Your new book of You and Her,
And I shall open mine.

Fullstop. :DD

Goodbye?

So long and Goodnight sounds nicer. :D

`~~Toss~~ Throw it, Over the horizon, to somewhere far enough.

2005-11-08T15:27:00.000+08:00

Before I let You go, before I let You go
Can I get a kiss, goodnight, baby.

Dont say Goodbye, say Goodnight.

Each time, before I let You go
Somehow You will reappear in my life.
Reminding me of the old times,
Of the times we had together.
But this time,
Things are different,
Different time,
Different place.
And We cant go back to where we were.
But You still have that small hold over me,
And then I know,
You still have that chain, Chained to me.
And I cant break free.

Unchain Me;

2005-11-07T19:00:00.000+08:00

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside.

2005-11-06T15:06:00.000+08:00

The fights that the night hides.
So many thoughts have been dancing ard in my head,
doing little tribal dances here and there,
chanting craps and everything,
till im getting a huge headache.

Okay, i thought i could make it through one pathetic blog post,
But i guess i cant,
Later perhaps.

Glued to ground;
With no more tears left to shed.

2005-11-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

The heat from the coals.
Thurs:
Bbq with Clique at Amandal's house.
Went swimmming for awhile.
Then spent almost 2 hours trying to start the damn fire.
Took pictures.
Had fun.

Left for Book Keng.
Met with Gray.

Oh, Btw my phone got confiscated by my Hell of irritating dad.
Till further notice,
Dont message or call that phone.
Actually can msg la,
Cos I know where the phone is so i will keep checking it. :DD
Oh well,
He just loves to disrupt my life whenever He's back. Tsktsk.

And I've been thinking if i shld highlight my hair,
Which might turn out bad.
And I might get caught when I go for Trng.
Stupid rules.
Tsktsk.
And its bad for my hair from what my mum complains.
Oh Heck.
I will ask Besties and Gray.

Oh crap, I dont knw what the hell im doing with the colourful post.
Im sooo bored,
and Yunzhen is being a Sore loser in minesweepers. :D

Slip into this tragedy.

2005-11-03T13:31:00.000+08:00

The prime of what lies beneath
Its been a tiring week.
Trng and all,
Somemore my maid decided that she had enough of my house,
went for a vacation for 2 weeks.
Been scrubbing and mopping floors.
I feel like cinderella.
And I've just realised,
Im SOOOOOOO pampered.

Emotional week too.
And once again, Im at loss at what to do.

Felicia wanted me to update and so i shall be nice to put Her name in.

HELLO FELICIA!
YOU LOVE MY BLOG RIGHT,
=DD
<33

You have spun this chamber dry.

2005-10-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

what holds it together.
its back to the end of the year.
super fast dont ya think?
taking a look at the blogs ard,
i've noticed lengthy entries abt how 2005 went.
thanking their friends and everything.
i think its damn sweet. =)

i thought of doing smth the same,
but im not in the right state to write alot now.
im so miserably tired.

so here are just the random few la.

Dionne:
2 years. =) i dont knw if you will be reading this at all. but here goes. two beautiful years. many ups and downs i must say. And i never really got to tell you how much i thank you for staying by my side time and time again. =) My best nugget friend, what rubbish. and you and your "shut down and get found." Tsktsktsk. What would i do without you? i cannot stand to bear that simple thought, but as all things will come to an eventual end, its becoming true. i dont knw what to offer to you to show my appreciation, but i will promise to call whenever i can, and we can gossip about more ah bengs, indian mans you get married to and of course the N guy. xD and im soooo happy for you that you got to the class you wanted, you hysterical woman. xD <33>

Suann:
if Dionne and I had ups and downs, You and I had downhills all the way until this year. and its funny how we got closer during the sept hols. ironic how we became besties for barely a few months. but i will always cherished the many phone calls we make, the many times you were JI DONG and keep whacking my lap until it turns red. the many times you will pull your hair like you wanna get balding. xD and the little secrets that we share. maybe thats what would keep our friendship tgr. =) I wont say, I will miss you, cause i know that is understood. and now that i know your little secret, you cant run away.. xDDD Anyhow, <33.>

Renee:
Oh Renee darling, the Cho chang WANNABE. We all know you cant make it la. hahhaa. my darling PARDNER who's always poking me in class, pouring WATER on my handphone. tearing my sweet wrappers. SINGING COUNTRY SONGS WITH MY WRITINGS. XD I dont knw how i cld stand you and your lameness, and your super seriousness when you study, you get so paranoid and serious, YOU DONT HEAR WHAT IM SAYING. xD always tapping me during lessons to wake me, always tapping me to wake me when i fall asleep during a test. THANK YOU LA. =) Though we were never very much that close as to share all our secrets, you had always been there to just let me shed a tear on that TALL shoulder of yours, and thats simply enough. =) Still, You LOVE TO EAVEDROP ON ME AND BIRD WHEN WE ARE TALKING. So annoying CAN ANOT. Ha, so in the end, you know. xD Anyhow, HARRY POTTER MOVIE SOON OKAY?! xD <33>

Amandal:
we arent that close anymore compared to last year, but your singing ah, still ringing in my ears after like 84y58327572387492753 years can anot? spastic one. =D please just take care. =) Hope you can appeal la. =) <33>

Nicole:
EX-EX partner, My mum rmbs you as the one who keeps talking t me in class until Edna have to spilt us up and complain to my mum. My life story partner, how we share abt ER HEM. xD Well, there's much to say, but words just simply cant express. please take care. <33>Bird,

Charlotte, Veron and Renaa:
2 more years tgr. =) Looking forward to it? Oh boy, Im SOOOO DREADING IT. XD

Clique outing soon.
I will continue another time.

Goodnight.

Bled dry.

2005-10-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

quiet conversations,
awkward moments.

the end?

2005-10-26T14:58:00.000+08:00

Bloody bitch.
You just cant shut your fucking mouth can you.
Dont bother to explain.
This time , You crossed the line.

You can say im being insensitive,
Watch who's talking.
Playing the sympathy game arent You?
You can say im even BEGGING you,
But PLEASE,
shut that fucken gap of yours,
and get a bloody life of your own.

2005-10-26T09:31:00.000+08:00

reality check ; yesterday's dream.
its still early in the morning,
I shld have slept in.
perhaps i will head back to bed.

Nothing much yesterday,
AKK came over.
Spent the time bumming ard and watching spongebob.
Pleasant surprise by Her. =)

its been a messy week.
R/s put to test,
I just hope you guys are okay.
Well, Im happy for another.
LIKE FINALLY. =D

Ah Well.

The words dont link in my head anymore,
I will prolly come back later.

My beautiful dream.

2005-10-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

Lets go.
Its fast how we both moved on,
Im not upset,
Im not feeling anything at all.
Its just this whole new thing,
Which is rather cool to be exact. =)

Its just another random thought.

Anyway, its been a rather mundane monday, come to think of it, I did absolutely NOTHING. And what dumb shit we have on weds and thurs, lessons as per normal. Okay, I hate typing this way.

~~its stupid how we throw our emotions ard and get hurt.~~

You: I dont knw if you wld even read this, but i hope you do. I'm sorry if i hurt You. Yes, You. The one who told me everything and regretted. I never meant to do those stuff, whatever it is. I never knew that SHE meant so much to You. I dont want to repeat whatever I said to you on Sunday. Just, Im Sorry.

Im really lazy to blog.
Tsk.

Suann is annoying me terribly. Oh well.

Goodnight.

Yes, You, Stay the same. =)

2005-10-22T14:18:00.000+08:00

underground music
its not being selfish or anything,
but i just hate it when underground music comes out,
just perhaps because of one popular person.
and its just not that special anymore perhaps?
and here we go again,
some people go ard using it,
singing it,
thinking they are so cool when they are singing it.
thinking they now they've got the song that they are so in.
without it ever occurring to them at all,
that they are somehow lagging behind.
that somehow, we already heard the songs a billion and one times.
i hate it how they always show it off and every fuck thing abt it.

oh well.

its a week more to end of sch.
no more 2b305 anymore.
somehow im going to miss it alot.
and i mean ALOT.

This week's been just throw my face away week.
My mentality just simply changed to,
since this is the last week tgr with the clique,
just be crazy like them.
being mummies for mu naiyi,
walking ard the sch like some ugly jungleman with flowers.
simply spastic.

still,
i will miss them loads.
outing soon PLEASE? =)

a year gone,
pretty fast this year if you really start thinking abt it.
i guess we all grew up more this year.
more friendships down the drain,
more heartbreaks,
inevitably.

oh well.
just random thoughts passing thru my mind.

Oh yeah,
I SIMPLY ADORE DIYANAH'S CAT. =D

once would be enough.

2005-10-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

HELLO =D You want me to blog for you right ? I AM BEING NICE ENOUGH TO SPECIALLY BLOG FOR YOU. Its a damn BIG honour to have a entry by me =D

ORH ORH ORH . YOU OWE ME 100 !
I CRY YOU A LETTUCE WITH BANANA RIVER =D

I BET YOU HAVENT BATHE TILL NOW .
DIRTY FELLOW !

DORY LOVES ME THIS I KNOW ,
YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME =D

-Demelza :]

2005-10-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

Too many stuff were left unsaid.
Days gone by like that.

Ahh well.

[23:12-Edit]
Beautiful week? TSK.

Freaking day.
Results back.
Did freaking bad.
For Maths and Science that is.
Quite happy for Lit and Chinese. =)

Damn,
One year gone like that.
This year's been pretty fast.
All i can rmb are just bits and pieces,
Like Competition periods and so on.

I will miss that big group in my class.
That full of nonsense clique.
How we like to act DUA in class. xD
The ones that make me laugh and cry at the same time.
The ones who will always mean so much too me.
Its going to be weird next year. Tsk.

AHH WELL.

Today:
Tennis cancelled due to rain.
Lunched with SiewHwee, Phoebe and Hannah. =)
That idiotic Phoebe just cant keep her mouth shut.
Act like i was angry,
Siewhwee agrees that i can win the oscar?
Whatever la. xD
Siewhwee went home with Charms.
And Charms thinks she can just whack anybody cause she got a freaking bambi face.
Idiot la.
Sent Hannah home with Phoebe.
Talks with Phoebe with some chained chair.
She is so sparstic.
She kept talking NON-STOP. x)

Headed to Serangoon Station to meet Ms Robbins. =]
Swopped Test papers.

Headed home later.

Your hots and colds.
~~Simply too much for me.~~
Am I just for show?

2005-10-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

We all have our secrets.
So i will close one eye.
Stumbled upon unimportant stuff.
Ahh well.
Certain matters been annoying.

Scorching day.
Matches and cleaning up was killer.
Jiangnan thingy after that,
Bird sucks at selling things.
Thank God she's not ambitioning to be a salesman.

Fabulous afternoon w Ms Robbins. Tsk.
=)
Had fun. =D

OH, and i knw FELICIA THE TOOKER JUST WANTS ME TO MENTION HER CAUSE SHE ASK ME TO UPDATE. AND I UMPIRE WELL OKAY! =)

YOU
BLINKED
AT
ME
TODAY.
PFFTS.

AND
IM
GOING
TO
BOO
YOU
TMRW.
HEH.
x)

Okay. Suann Irritated me tooo. And Im NOT on cloud nine, I knw You are on cloud Ten. Ha.
Yes there is a cloud ten you goondu, For you lor. Stupid Bestie. Cheer up you goondu. =) Love.

alright, I want to head to bed now.
Dead tired.
My Moodswings are so terrible now.

Your My Endorphin.

2005-10-16T13:50:00.000+08:00

wrong again?
i cant deal with insecurities for nuts.
i cant help thinking whatever im doing is wrong.
wrong in taking away someone who means alot to someone else?
gosh. im thinking too much again.
i will take my thoughts somewhere else la.

conclusion:
doraynn, you think way toooooooo much. tsk

and i have to emphasize Elizabeth Tan,
cause ive told you UMPTEEN times,
and i hope you're reading this.
its ISRAEL. not ISREAL.
of course IS is REAL.
okay. that was damn lame.
and there's the perfect reason why ISRAEL isnt for you.
you cant even spell it.
yes, Bird in ISRAEL spells trouble.
ha.

~~Once again,~~
~~You got your gun to my head.~~

The rain drops are falling on my head.. laadeedum.
tsktsk.

when the rain falls from the stars,
where it all had been written.

2005-10-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

To close one eye or not to?
I'm not going to blog abt Founder's day cause
You can read that from any other blog.

Heartland with Jan, Ju and Charms, CandHo and Alicia. =)
Was damn sparstic.
CandHo is damn unappreciative la.
Jan cut hair at Swee.
Macs later.
Laughed and Crapped lame stuff.
Ju and Alicia had a competition who will finish the burger first.
Tsktsk.

Alicia and Candice left first.
Played like Netball with No rules.
Damn Crazy.
Bball.
Met some sore loser.
Met Theresa AGAIN.
Whats with this week arh. Tsk.

Home with Charms =).

I have lost my voice competely,
And im talking to Suann like hoarsely.
Sparstic.

Oh wells.
Why do I even bother to Blog?
TSK.

Hell, of course I do knw that one of You's lying. Not that I dont want to trust You, But i hate to even bare the freaking thought that You are the one lying. Perhaps its really just some freaking shortgun matter. Am I then suppose to close one eye and pretend that I dont knw what the hell is going on? I Shldnt even be bothering abt this trivial matter.

A million thoughts are tearing my head apart.

And its just been Oh so very ~~beautiful~~ days?
Right,Perhaps.

Which will You prefer?
My finger on the trigger or Me face down, down across Your floor.

You've got Your gun to My head.

2005-10-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

I will let the photos do most of the talking.

Corpse Brides!

Mirrors mirrors. tsk! xD

Testes Besties! =)

The lights of my life. =)

Ytd:
-Movies with darlings. =D
-Towned with Angkukueh. =)
-Met Dale and Theresa everywhere. Tsk. xD
-Special Night. =]

``
Today:
-Supposed Netball & Captain ball games cancelled.
-Stupid darn rain that keep playing a fool of us.
-Passed time taking those below.

We look like we are trying to fly and failing miserably.xD

Yes, Its the stupid toilet. xD

Yes, Lets just throw Dionne down.

Over above

The toilet one was damn funny. Bird and I were super afraid that the toiletbowl wld break since we were standing on to it. I was like Omg. I was grabbing on t the sides of the walls can. I look like im posing and doing a horrible job. xD

You shld watch the stupid video on Suann's Blog. You will laugh like shit.

Im majorly tired.
And i've lost my voice.
Damn sexay yes.
okay. Disgusingly gross.

Happy Birthday Ka! Miss You like LOADS! xD
Im not too late. xD

Happy Early Founder's day?
okay.

*You made me smile in my sleep. Ha.

Decipher the lies or stay still?

2005-10-11T15:12:00.000+08:00

Build More Beautiful days.

Today was like HURRAY.
Last day of exams.
I was like Hooray,
But people like Dionne were too worried if they wrote the wrong words to celebrate. xD
Somethings never will change. x)
They got me thinking about Next year,
When Classes are changed and everything.
Oh well.
I think Everyone's gonna cry.

Our Prime times are over.
Yes, its pretty obvious.
Shoot it out next time.
Dont waste my time.
Freaking Stuff that I wont waste my time complaining.
Things done time and time again.
Thank You Soulmate. <33

Had lunch with Dionne, Suann,Renee, Veron and Renaa at macs.
Met Dale, Theresa and the other two la.
I just had a funny hunch I would meet them and Pop,
They appeared.
Pretty Freaky.

Over at Renee's House with Veron.
They are playing taboo now.
Oh, And You must absoultely catch the HARRY POTTER MOVIE.
CEDRIC DIGGORY IS LIKE HOT.
Okay, and Renee will def. make a better Cho chang. xD

Perhaps its my insecurites.
Well, I'm not waiting for Your Answer,
For all its worth,I could be Yr little fling.

2005-09-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

[edit- Tag replies at the bottam of this post]

The Wrong Hand.

Im not suppose to be doing this,
I shldnt be anywhere near this ,
Thinking of the everything,
When the EOYS are so freaking near.

Well,
Its the same thing everytime.
Study hard! xD

~~Its You i still think about.~~

Im flying high and away.

[Edit]
Its been long since i replied tags.
And im bored. xD
Hope pple see this,
doubt so when everyone is so busy but Oh wellies. =)

Ka; I hope You are reading this,
I freaking miss You loads! =D
Yes. Ling Yong Bao's gonna be gone.
Party soon yes?
Good luck for EOYS! AND MATHS! =D <33

Miles;
Hello! =)

Eunice;
Hello dearest.
Talk on Sat okay?
Stop slack you dope, Start studying. xD
<3

Felicia;
You and the lame stuff You make.
WHERE ARE YOU?
NEVER COME TO SCH TODAY!?
Tsk. xD

Emeline;
Hello! I miss talking to You too.
I know i made empty promises to call,
But i will call soon.
Maybe aft EOYS okay?
Love.

Demelza;
Hello! =] STUPID ANG KU KUEH! xD

Nuryl;
You are?

Kris;
Helloooooooooo DUMBEST OF THE DUMBEST ASS! xD

Joyce and Peiqi;
Good luck for exams too.
Take care and study hard ! =)

Hannah;
Hello! =]
Thanks for your sweet msgs. <33

2005-09-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

Im Not okay.

Yes, Its all coming back.
Exams are like freaking soon.

I screwed my chinese Oral with my " Like, Erms and I Mean."
Wah Lao Eh.

Oh wells.
THIS IS FOR FELICIA.

I LOVE FELICIA. =DD

2005-09-20T21:24:00.000+08:00

Lost you again.

Short post.
As i glanced down and saw you,
Tried to catch up with you,
But you just simply walk away.

Oh wells.

Shut up Doralynn.

-Got caught for my hair.
-Slept during Maths. =)

Bout all.

Fightings with someone impt.
I need time.

Talks with Stupid Ang ku Kueh. =DD

Study hard pple.
Someone tell me that. =DD

Lost you again and again.
What difference does it make anymore?

2005-09-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

Over and out.

So much for anything.
Lemme know when your done with your fucken entertainment,
And ready to get back to me.
I give up.

So much for hiding all those fuckshits.
Yes, You got me real bad.
ARE YOU FUCKEN HAPPY KNOWING THAT NOW?

Im freaking exhausted.
Emo songs have been accompanying me all day,
That explains my freaking mood.
And well,
We all know who can make me so fucken angry.

Oh wells.

Nothing matters anymore right? TSK.

Pray for me pple,
That i can still study with this dumb stupid mood.
The stress intensity is fucken high.
Oh wells.

Wake me up when ~~september~~ October ends.

:DD

2005-09-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

I LOVE FELICIA ! <33333

2005-09-16T12:25:00.000+08:00

The stars, Where it had all been written.

Im awfully tired,
So much to do ,
so little time. tsk tsk.

I was honestly gonna die from exhaustion.
On the way home ytd,
I was just freaking tired,
I was walking in like Zig-Zag.
Like i was in some drunken stupor,
Yes, Embarassing enough,
I almost slammed into a tree.

And what could be lamer than Bird sending me some stupid riduculous msg,
Dont ask me to elaborate,
Ask her. =D

Everybody's been busy,
Im very lazy to blog.
Later perhaps.

2005-09-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

Cry no more;
Fret no more.

Short post cause i gotta run!
So its all about studying and studying.
Really boring,
Im really looking forward to the day after exam ,
When i can rejoice. =)

But thinking about it,
This IS our last year together.
As a class.
Pretty sad and even scary dont you think?
Not the same classmates anymore.
Oh wellies. TSKTSK.

Alright.
I having muscle aches all over,
I cant laugh,
I cant move without feeling the ache all over.
Im such a complain queen.

Hope everyone's doing okay. =)
Till we can laugh and cry in happiness after EOYS.
That was so random.
Ha.

~~Perhaps you will never know,~~
~~The Simple things that you do,~~
~~Gets to me real hard.~~

An Eye for an Eye makes the world go blind.
Seriously Dionne,
WHAT A LAME PHRASE. =DD

2005-09-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

Separate ways.

Its not everyday i come online anymore,
So THERE MR MILES.
IM SORRY I CANT BLOG EVERYDAY.
Tsk tsk. Hahaha.
I know im just your source of entertainment.
Hohums.

The week is almost over.
The holidays to be exact.
PFFT.
Been bumming ard ,
Watching drama series,
STUDYING.
Ha. i know. Unbelievable.
And of course papercut. =)

Well,
Im looking forward to them coming back tmrw. =)
So much to do tmrw.
There's the match! =)
Okay okay.

Thanks for talking to me this few days Suann and Creator.
My days have been boring. :DD

Creator keeps letting me listen to EMO songs,
AND SHE GETS MORE EMO THAN ME.
Ha, I know her little secret.
=)

Two more days and then whoosh,
Back to sch.
EOYS.
And then we can all celebrate with Champagne.

Okay,
Hitting the books and papercut.
My penknife is super annoyingly lousy.
Anyone wants to buy me a new one? =)

Anchored in hope.
When will the journey unfold?

2005-09-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

Truth only in her eyes.

I'm really annoyed by my mum and petty pot tuition teacher,
Whats new?
Really.

This week's been tiring.
As in really.
Starting from Sunday.

Pess Carnival. =)
Games and all . =)
Walks around the HUGE sch (NIE) with Charms,
We oohh and Ahhhed over the buildings.
HUGE hockey court in the middle.
Was damn wiindy so we sat down in the middle for awhile.
Crazy thoughts of dancing,
And its was raining. :DD

Monday,
Visited the tennis sessions. =)
Late for Edna's class. Whoops.

Today:
Trng.
All lazy and stuff.
The 4 period ladys were grouped tgther! =D
Snacked w Shiyun and Shabana. =)

I've been sleeping alot these few days.
And eaten alot alot.
And my mum just told me im fat.
TSK.
What kind of mother hor?
Ha.

Never thought i'd say this but,
I miss Dionne and the rest!
DONT GET EGO HOR DIONNE ,
When you see this thats if.

Suann lent me her Corrinne May Cd.
Its gettting in my head.
Thanks woman for listening and checking my stuff for me! =)
I listened to you about ER-HEM ER-HEM okay. =DD

Let it go,
Let it be,
Dont waste our emotions on a tit-for-tat machine.

Yes, yes, I love the Cd Very much. =)

2005-09-02T12:30:00.000+08:00

Back to where we started.
My internet explorer is still down. =(
So here i am, Using the sch's com.

Today's the last day of term 3.
It feels like just another day though.
'Cept the fact
that Debbie and Victoria's playing some gruesome clip.
Gross.

So im picking up pieces of my life slowly,
In turn,
I'm having less time for some.
I just hope i wouldnt let history repeat itself.
For all its worth.

Physical later,
And the rest are all going to China. =Like half my class is going?!
Its not going to be the same on monday,
When we have maths lessons.
Oh well.

PARDNER, DIONNE AND BIRDDEH.
BETTER BUY SOMETHING FOR US! :DD

I just realised how big a part technology plays in my life,
Without handphones or computer,
Communications are lost.
Yes, like how im missing this someone cause we cant talk.
Because that someone's technological means are taken away.
Do human relationships depend alot on technological means then?

I shall not nag on,
I will start thinking too much.

Ahwellies.

As usual i never will get the best of two worlds,
So im slipping,
My grip over you.
I think the feelings just leaving,
But im never too sure.
We all forget in the measure of time,
Maybe i just need something to remind me,
To Jolt me outta this daze.
Maybe your not the right one.
Then again you could be.
I hate having two points of view.

Ole' so annoying.
Insecurities really suck. Tsk.

Oh whatever. Really.
Thinking too much again. Haw haw.

Renaa is coughing and reading under the table.
She looks riduculous for some reason. Hahaha.
Dionne, Renee and Suann's watching something GRUESOME.
Like GROSS! MAJOR GROSS.
HAHAHA.

Once again Here we are , Back to where we started.

2005-08-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

Finally.
My com has some freaking problem,
Couldnt blog.
Stupid internet explorer.
Ha!
So i guess i wouldnt be blogging so much now.

Took off the pw,
Like it helped.
Just wanted some privacy.
But in the end,
EMELINE THE MEATHEAD STILL COULD HACK.

Today was fun,
Im really lazy to blog.
Everything in short form.

-Presentation.
Dionne's group was great! =)
Damn funny.

-Basketball.
Damn fun.
Okay, I think we bullied them. xD
Thoough we had like 4 pple and they had 11? HAHA

-Dental at lucky plaza.
Waited and waited for SOOOO long ,
Till we were like so hungry.
But i had fun today. =)

Generally,
Great day. =)
Fun.
THEY SHOULD SERIOUSLY GIVE US FRIDAY A HOLIDAY.
This week is so slack!
:D

Things are perhaps superficial,
But im not going to pry and see why.

Oh well.
Im not feeling all that good.

Cant take your hots and colds.
Take it or leave it.
Dont take my heart and run away.

2005-08-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

Im so annoyed now.
Really.
Whatever you say now contridicts with how you act.
Not a trace of anything you feel.
Insecurities.
Very.
How can i not be?
You and her had smth before,
And now what am i to feel?

Petty pot .
I know.

Oh whatever.
Nothing really matters anymore does it?
Soon, Things will just be a lie.
Everything will fade to become nothing.
And in turn,
I will be a nothing.

Oh GOODNIGHT.

2005-08-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE. =DD
I'm here only cos Dory is dying for me to leave some imprint of myself in her blog.
x]
Hahas.
Anyhoos, Dory is jealous and afraid that I love Vicky more than I love her.
TSKTSKTSK.
Wellos, take care! See you tmr, sweets.
<3333.

DORY HEARTS ME.

Theresa` :)

2005-08-28T11:53:00.000+08:00

Ignorance.
I will take my words and leave.
Ignore the post below.
It doesnt matter anymore.
I dont make sense,
Not anymore.
My thoughts are no longer straight.
Im not going to wallow in self-pity.
A step at a time.
Thats what im going to do.

We all need time.

Pathetically,
The doors will always be left unlocked.

Never the best of two worlds.

2005-08-27T14:47:00.000+08:00

No gurantees that you'd read this,
But here it goes.

Maybe you've mistaken here.
You think ive been using you.
Ha, When was that?
I know i did that in the past,
I tried to change right?
So when was it?
You couldnt even answer that freaking simple question.
I might not be seeing the point here,
But you aint going to tell me what it is are you?

If you didnt realise,
I tried talking to you like umpteen times.
Yes, Hints , i got the hints you sent me.
I TRIED.

But if you see the problem here its,
You will always need 2 hands to clap.
I clapped and missed.
If you realised,
I tried calling you,
But you always gave some excuses about being busy.
Call me back?
HAHAHA.
Count the number of times you said that and the number of times,
You DID call back.
The ratio would be pathetic.

Why do i always have to be the one taking the initiative?
You said i call you only when im sad and out.

BUT DID I LEAVE YOU OUT WHEN IM HAPPY?
ISNT THAT WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR?
CATCHING EACH OTHER WHEN THEY FALL?
No?
Yes?

And the things you've said.
Are so freaking long ago.
I know i was,
I STOP.
DID YOU SEE THAT?
NO.

Cause after that,
You closed your eyes to the facts.
Never gave me another chance.
Oh.
Now you're going to talk about how you've given me umpteen chances.

OH.
Havent i also?
HEY. Im only human.

I asked what the hell is it that you cant take it in me,
You didnt want to tell.
I cant read your mind.
Really.
So what the hell do you want me to do?

Maybe i aint worth your time.
Aint worth anything of your goodness of this friendship.
Well, Im sorry then that this ever happened.

You might think i dont bother a single bit over what's happening.
But i am.
I dont know why the hell im so upset over it since you already gave the verdict.

Let me ask you one LAST THING.
If you were my spare tyre,
Do you think i would bother about you now that your leaving?

You let go,
Not me.
If You close the door,
I will lock it .

Oh whatever. Really. So be it.

CIP today.
Edna needs Love desperately.
-LOOKS TO DALE.
We all felt like Cinderella.
I think the butterflies might give each of us nightmare when we're in the sickbay.
HA-HA.

Im super lazy to blog.
Later perhaps.

Ponder upon my words,
before you set the verdict pls.
Not the first time i know.

You?
My biggest mistake?
Ha.
Yeah. Prolly.

2005-08-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

The million dollar question.

A step forward ,
Or a step back?

I'm starting to feel everything.
Surprisingly,
Your not the one bothering me.
She is.
Which of you mean more?
The answer is stinging me.

Nothing is making sense i know.
I just feel like so damn shitty.

Killer Training.
Killing Day.

On a lighter note,
Soulmates' second day in sch. =)
Staying in a room with a murderer.
Oh what funny aliteration.
But i get what you mean. =)

Just another Bad day to add to my great collection.

2005-08-24T15:03:00.000+08:00

For all i care,
Walk away a second time .

Oh what Irony.

2005-08-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

Pictures Speak Louder than words.

I LOVE JOELLE! :DD

I AM PROFESSIONAL! THE GREAT VACCUM PROFESSIONAL! HEEHEE.

Went to Soulmate's house.
Had a whole lotta fun.
She's damn LAME.

Im lazy to Blog.

When The Storm Clears.

2005-08-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

Sum it all up.
Horrible day,
Crappy Night.
Stupid fight.